Archive for March, 2014

Last week I wrote about resistance being the greatest clue that what we are resisting is actually what will move us ahead the fastest in our endeavors and personal development.
This week as I was trying to be more conscious about if there was any resistance, I was reminded of the question we were to start asking ourselves a few weeks ago in the Master Key Master Mind Alliance (MKMMA): “What am I pretending not to know?” I never got much meaning out of that question before, but as I was trying to be more conscious about whether I was resisting something or not (so I could purposely choose to do that thing if I was resisting it) that question took on more meaning. I have been saying this version of that question to myself: “What am I pretending not to notice?” and “What am I resisting?” Before last week I was pretending not to notice what I was resisting.
I feel more flow now since I’ve been purposefully choosing to do what I briefly resisted. Briefly is the key word here…being on the alert and noticing quickly the resistance and then acting instead of continuing to resist has been a great exercise for me. Resisting certainly would slow a person down, but I’m hopping onto the fast track of no resistance!

What is the greatest clue to what will bring the breakthrough to more success? Resistance!

This week I found myself resisting my 15 minute sit. I knew I should do it, but I just kept making excuses and coming up with reasons I didn’t have time or didn’t want to. It must be that the part of my brain that wants the peptides of not following through are screaming because they’re really needing their fix! Being consistent and following through to finish a personal development program has long been a challenge for me, so as we are getting close to the finish of this course it’s logical that the screaming would begin. Hopefully this time will be the last time for the screaming, because as I finish this it will be setting a new precedent.
I’m about to have a break through – to finish this course successfully. This is the time when I just know I have to bite the bullet and do it. Then the breakthrough will happen. I’m going to sit now…I’ll be back. I’m back! Mission accomplished. Pressing into the resistance and doing it anyway feels so powerful, and I know it is. Onward to the finish!

Today when I was reading my Master Key Master Mind Alliance reading, I ran across a phrase that reminded me of something I learned a few weeks ago. (That the only difference between the word passive and passion is ACTION!) If I get into action, passion can come! If I am lacking passion, I need to find the catalyst to get into action. What is the catalyst? Desire!
The sentence I read today said: “Desire is the strongest mode of action.” I’d never thought of desire as an action before! Have you?
It’s dawning on me as I write – why I seem to have quite a bit of non-action in my life (and lack of passion as a result). As a child with five children in our family, when I had a desire, I learned to squelch it, because I knew I really couldn’t have what I desired to have, because there wasn’t enough money.
Can't have it; no action
So squelching my desires became a habit. (This translated to squelching action in my life, because remember “Desire is the strongest mode of action.”) So as I write here, I’m getting very emotional – realizing what the cause of inaction in my life is. The cause is that I have squelched my desires from early in my life. This squelching of my desires results in squelching of action on an unconscious level, and squelching of action means no passion – because part of passion is action! Even the last part of the word passion has part of the word action because you can’t have passion without action. This moment of realization as I write is HUGE.
I know now what I need to do. I need to let myself experience every desire I’ve ever had. I will start from when I was a child and remember what I wanted. If there is any grief about not having it, I will experience it. Then I will write it down and experience that desire and visualize what I would have done to acquire it. Then I will experience having it in my visualization. This process will change the perception of desire in my subconscious mind, and bring me to today where I can allow my desires to come to the surface and then be empowered to act to change them into a passion that will bring fruition to my life.
The video below is what I watched that brought me to the place of writing this evolving realization that just now took me from ignoring my desires (inaction) to knowing how to get myself to know and act on my passion. I’m so grateful.

This month’s Scroll in the Master Key Master Mind Alliance (MKMMA) brought a breath of fresh air to me. It’s always helpful to know you’re not the only one in the world who has a certain challenge! Now I know that the rise and fall of my moods from one day to the next is normal, just like the tides of the ocean.
Normal or not, it’s one thing I’ve long wanted to be able to change.
After reading this scroll I’ve decided to stop wishing to change what is a fact of life and do what it says in this scroll (and I added two at the bottom)
If I feel depressed I will sing.
If I feel sad I will laugh.
If I feel ill I will double my labor.
If I feel fear I will plunge forward (after doing this technique to release fear)
If I feel inferior I will wear new garments.
If I feel uncertain I will raise my voice.
If I feel poverty I will think of wealth to come.(I know it is mine already, because “I always keep my promises!”
If I feel incompetent I will remember past success.
If I feel insignificant I will remember my goals.
If I feel unfocused, I will ask myself “What would the person I intend to become do next?”
If I feel unworthy I will remind myself that I am good enough to succeed BECAUSE I’m doing my best!

TODAY I AM MASTER OF MY EMOTIONS! I celebrate every day I wake up and I am alive! YESSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSS!

I’ve also been running on mini trampoline while quickly saying yes, yes, yes; yes, yes, yes; and feeling what that feels like. It feels awesome! I’m saying yes to everything life has to bring to me, because I have put my order in for what is coming!

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